And it was at this point that I was left thinking about all the time that I had wasted. All the seconds, minutes and hours that I spent doing nothing. Spent waiting. Spent viewing the future as the solution to the present. It was then that I realized that I should have spent all of this time learning, growing, evolving. But I had been too lost. Too lost in what I believed was thought. Too lost to even realize that I was lost at all… My mind jumping from one thing to another in a never-ending circle of chatter and misdirection.
I remember being submerged in the illusion… When I didn’t realize that I wasn’t really alive at all.